Will you trust me?

Posted: December 15, 2011 in Uncategorized

Jesus keeps asking me the same question…. Will you trust me?. My answer is always yes but he keeps asking me over and over again. It’s because when I respond with yes, it requires something of me. I cant say yes Jesus I trust you and keep doing what i’m doing or continue to do nothing. Earlier this year he began asking me several questions that would drastically change my life forever. He asked me if I would leave the financial security that my job gives me to serve him full time, for months I fought him on it until I finally let go of the idea that I would be at my current job for the rest of my life. Then he asked me if I would leave this country permanently as a missionary, or what the bible calls a Christian. I fought it for months until I understood his command to preach the Gospel to the nations and he gave me a heart for the lost. He began to show me the idols in my life and asked if I would give them up. Within a few months I had sold my off-road race truck that I have spent the last 5 years building, I am no longer playing softball and the idea that life is about me is long gone. I thought it was over for now but he just keeps asking me the same question…..Matt will you trust me?

Jesus I trust you with everything, it all belongs to you. My life, the air in my lungs, the job I have, my health, the money in the bank…… it’s all yours. You have always been there for me and you have never let me down. I owe you my life. Deep in my heart I know you have called me to leave Southern California but I don’t know when. I know you have it all figured it out. Maybe you will send me somewhere in Southeast Asia or the Middle east? Maybe Australia? Maybe Canada? Jesus I will go wherever you send me. If you keep me in So Cal I will spend my whole life sending your people to the ends of the earth, that they might come to know you. I know that there will come a day when you bless me with the gift of lovely wife. She will be perfect and until that day I will continue to pray for her purity, her heart and that she will love you more than she will ever love me. The circumstances of this life will never change who you are, what you have done for me and what you have called me to do. Jesus I love you with all of my heart. Thank you for saving me. Amen

If Jesus has been asking you this question I promise the question isn’t over when you say yes. It requires something of you. It requires faith. It will cost you everything. He has promised you things and called you to many things that will bring glory to his name. When you look at the current circumstances of your life, you may think that the things God is stirring in your heart and showing you are impossible but nothing is impossible with God. He will move you where he wants you to be. He will teach you what you need to learn. He will love you regardless of what you have done, what you are doing right now and what you will do in the future. He has called you to live a life that makes much of him. It may seem that it’s not time to step into the promises he has made to you but be assured there is a good chance that it’s not that the time isn’t right. It’s that you just aren’t listening, you wont get off the couch, you are scared to let go of the things of this life that don’t matter and ultimately you wont or don’t trust him. I’m right there fighting through this with you. I pray that he lights a fire inside of you that will never go out.

Will you trust Him?


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