In my weakness

Posted: March 17, 2012 in Uncategorized

There are some of you who don’t know me very well. There are some of you who I used to be really close with but its been years since we talked. There are some of you who know who I am at the deepest level and what I am about.
I once was lost, I escaped death more times than I can count, I hid in the darkness and never let anyone see in, I hurt a lot of people, I may have hurt you, I hurt myself in ways that I thought I could never forgive myself for and would haunt me for the rest of my life but let me tell you that Jesus paid for it all!!!!!! Jesus paid it all!!!!!!!
Jesus saved me and I have now been entrusted to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ to you and to the ends of the earth. Jesus was the prophesied savior of the world. We are all doomed to hell without Him. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God but He paid for that sin on the cross. Jesus was God, who came as a man and was crucified on the cross for our sins. The best part of it is that he rose from the grave 3 days later and we now have life! We have been made alive in the one who died in our place! For those of you who don’t know Jesus I want to be sure that you know the truth about Jesus. He made you! He loves you! You were made to spend eternity with him! He is pursuing you this very moment! For those of you who are Christians I plead with you to respond to what Jesus did for you and what He is calling you to do. If Jesus isn’t everything who is He? If Jesus dying on the cross wasn’t enough to pay for your sins and the sins committed against you, what was it for? Did you think that He was joking when he said it is finished? We need to respond to the things we know to be true about God. We need to know who’s we are and walk in whats been done for us. Jesus is everything. I owe Him my life. I am not perfect by any means but I love Jesus with all of my heart. There is a joy in knowing Him, serving Him, doing the things He has called me to, praying to him and giving Him my entire life. If I don’t give him my entire life or trust Him with everything what am I doing? I refuse to live life as a hypocrite and I refuse to be anywhere except where Jesus is!
I just spent the last hour and a half crying so hard my face hurts, my stomach is turning and I am weak. There is nothing left inside of me but joy in the Lord that nobody can ever take from me. As I sit here and type my body is shaking and I am overwhelmed at the fact that Jesus just rocked my world. He let me get a glimpse of how He sees the world, how He sees those who don’t know him, how He sees those who have turned their backs on Him because of unfortunate circumstances of this life and how He sees the people who have never heard the name of Christ. As Americans we have the opportunity to know Jesus everyday. There is an abundance of churches in our cities and you can find a bible almost anywhere. You have to actually go out of your way to not know Jesus in the western world. There are millions of people around the world who don’t know Jesus, there are people who would risk their lives to just get 1 page out of the bible and would literally lay down their lives for the name of Christ. It breaks my heart that there are millions of people who will die each year never knowing the love of Christ.
Jesus is everything. I may not always show His love to you, I may not tell you about Jesus every time I talk to you and I may not represent him well. But I promise you that I pray everyday that you may see His love in me, that you might get a glimpse of Him when you see me and that I get the opportunity to tell you about Jesus. I can’t save you. Only Jesus can. All I cant do is be faithful to what He has done for me and what He tells me to do. If you follow Jesus it will require something of you, you will actually have to do something, it will be the hardest thing you have ever done, life will cease to be about you, it will cost you everything but it is worth it! He knows that you are worth it! Jesus is everything!!!!!!!!!


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